Times when I feel like I’m losing myself happen often these days. Ah no, this past a year. I feel like times are fooling me around, by suddenly disappearing without saying goodbyes. And I remember those days when I was in love, deeply in love with someone back then when I was seventeen, and suddenly miss that feeling of deeply emotionally involved with someone I never really know.
Why is it that those girls are desparately chasing guys not really worth their loves? Perhaps, not because they really like the guys. Perhaps it’s because they dream of an idea of deeply in love with someone and they simply want to experience it; or pretend to experience it.
And why is it that I feel so empty inside? Is it because I currently am not in love with anyone, or is it because I can’t pretend to be in love with someone?